we're gonna go places you and me...

like a diamond in the sky...

the tail end...

you're not sure that you love me
but you're not sure enough to let me go
baby it ain't fair you know to just keep me hanging 'round

you say you don't want to hurt me
don't want to see my tears
so why are you still standing here just watching me drown

it's alright, i'll be fine
don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
take your love and hit the road
nothing you can do or say
you're going to break my heart anyway
just leave the pieces when you go

you can drag out the heartache
baby you can make it quick
really get it over with and just let me move on
don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
i can clean it up you see
just as long as you're gone

you're not making up your mind
it's killing me wasting time
i need so much more than that

it's alright, i'll be fine
don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
take your love and hit the road
nothing you can do or say
you're going to break my heart anyway
just leave the pieces when you go

-wreckers

i remember what it was like now...

a momentary pause in the act of death...

attainable...

i stayed behind so you'd miss me...

only the heartaches have given me sight...

breathe into me...

next time, things will be different...

it's been awhile, i miss you...

all hallows eve...

he's right...

"Did you know a lot of people spend time in their cars crying? Its true. I see it all the time." via

a door a door adore...

maybe it's the idea of creating a 400th post or maybe it's the immaculate weather we've been having here in portland. maybe it's the 4 jobs and maybe it's all the commitments i've been trying to keep. more than likely it's that space we sometimes sit in between happiness and sadness that refuses us inspiration. i've looked for that secret potion that makes our hearts stronger after weathering a storm: new feathers, pretty crystals, the warm hands of dear friends, sunshine, cat snuggles and log runs. the only thing that really seems to work is time. time is the tried and true cure for most things. out of sight means out of mind right?

we just keep beliving...

kiss me before our time is up...

couple more drinks and i'll forget about you...

almost always crying...

you're the reason i cry myself to sleep...

you looked like the sun
i was the only one
who could stare until you were done shining on me
and as we drank our wine and let the world fade away
the sunrise tried to end it while we tried to stay.

the rest of my life can't compare to this night
and only the heartaches have given me sight,
they bring me to you
they bring me to you

moon pours through the ceiling tonight
embraces us tight
shows me we're right for each other
and as we lie here and let the world fade away
the sunrise tries to end it while we try to stay.

the rest of my life can't compare to this night
and only the heartaches have given me sight,

they bring me to you

it's all about the first night and last,
some people say
well i love you so much more tonight,
more than yesterday.

he rest of my life can't compare to this night
and only the heartaches have given me sight,

they bring me to you

-jr

**sometimes we live our lives in songs because that's all we have

i am grateful but i am angry...

no shame in first light...